does family bring agony for you, too?

a poem about finding ways to be okay with your reality.

Photo by Kristina Tripkovic on Unsplash

i’ve always thought

that the words family

and agony rhyme.

they don’t,

but i understand why

i think they do.

we create connections when none exist

as a way of making sense

of the nonsensical.

i couldn’t understand

why my family was the culprit

behind my agony when that

wasn’t the case for

anyone else

around

me,

so my brain convinced me

it’s because they’re supposed to be.

because they rhyme.

because if i let myself dwell on the fact

that family isn’t supposed to bring

you agony, then i ache

even more.

so i don’t, and instead, i tell myself

they’re only closely linked

because they rhyme.

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