i forgot to remember
i forgot to remember i can never forget you. i left you
in a standstill back in twenty-sixteen and i’m twenty-four
now but i thought about you on your twenty-third. on the
third of your birth month, i remembered that i forgot it
was your birthday the day before, and it was not until the
day after yours that i forgot i used to remember. i don’t
remember you in ways that make sense. i forget you
until the timing is most inconvenient. time is the least
convenient. what if i want to propel myself to the year we
met so i can remember how magical being alive felt with
you? initially. what if i want to forget the months that
transcended into hell upon earth? eventually. what if i
want to forget to remember that i writhed on concrete
tiles when i forgot to remember the shape of your
silhouette? perpetually. i keep remembering that i will
never forget you.
